Going Back In for Safe Keeping

and its been decided... thou shall come back in to its shell and won't come out until the right time comes... in the mean time everything shall be taken into such consideration... tho won't be as hard as everyone but would be cautious in taking things in... as no one search to thee thou shall not be found....

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does it have to be..

its been a while since a made a piece
i tried holding back for all that comes out
were all about hurt and heart aches
the glorious ones i can't seem to stitch up

why does it have to be on this state
just to create these kind of stuff
i tried stitching some good ones
but it doesn't fit the rhyme.

the in between moments 01

the in between moments 01

Mar 21, '09 1:26 PM for everyone

thoughts over spilling the brain
certain things must put into something
this may not be the right spot to place
but at least i got it out of my head

just not used to being away that long
and worst my roots are oceans away
certain things i got to missed
certain people i want to be with

situations my sometimes over bearing
certain moments you want to breakdown
but who was there to catch you
just a fog and the dark

there may some who's there to back you up
but got troubles of their own to think about
so instead of spilling things out
you just smile and swallow things up

thy moments were just like a pendulum of emotions
there were those that soar your highest high
and those that dive your deepest low
but only thy character can equalize the result of your facade

the witch of portabello by Paulo Coelho

the witch of portabello by Paulo Coelho

A Place in This World???

yes, I want to know where my place in this world would be.. after living for nearly 3 decades I'm supposed to know by now where it should be,right? Or maybe just a hint would be ok. But right now I'm all scattered, trying to survive in this place I'm in without even knowing what I want in life. How am I suppose to know which place in this world I would be when even knowing what I want is already a task.
For a while I've searching for what I want trying to give words to the feelings that I'm having but often times my words don't give justice to what I feel. I'm constantly trying to explain to people what I want and don't want as if it matters to them what I say, so as I think. But I still say them, with thought in mind that somehow while saying it to them would make them realize I'm interesting. That possibly they'll consider of sharing their world with me tell things or some bits and pieces of their life that would make me part of it.
I just want to be part of someone's life. I just want t be part of their world without pushing myself too much to it. I just want to have another hand to hold when the world is having a turmoil. I always wanted to ask if its too much to ask for this.. but don't dare to sent it out coz I'm afraid HE will tell me the real reason why its still not happening.

TOL-01

clock is ticking
so loud it shutters these ears
things seems in a hurry
they've all got their halves with them
settling down silently at the side.
and where am i standing in the middle ground
watching around, observing how they move out
occasionally they'll stop and say hi
but more often than not they just pass by
can't blame them they got their own stuff to think about

i just can't see the reason after all these years
i'm still here at the same spot where they left me
no one ask me to be with them, no one dares to take my hand,
they say be patient take your time..
but men its been nearly century since they told me that
and things haven't change since then..
im sorry... its just so hard to look at the bright things for me
specially right now that it seems like i'm being left out...

How to find you???

I bought this new book, there was a sale in expo and we decided to take a look at the sale.. my friends and i thought the sale were all IT, computer, apparrel, shoes and others.. i wasn't planning to get anything until we came in to this large hall its like the size of a basketball court or twice the size of it.. and man it was filled with books in a very very low price... and the book worm part of me that im trying to hide just kick out and just run into the hall, not literally tho. i was so overwhelm by the amount of books that were in front of me.. its like i want to take them all home.. but clearly that is not possible coz i know a lot of them will just be filled with dust in the bookcase..
so how to choose its like they are all whispering in my ear choose me im nice, im the best pick me, i can tell you everything, take me i can be a good companion.. they are all nice and juicy but i only have to choose maximum of three.. so i just stand in the center look around and the first table that seems like pulling me i went to it.. then without touching anything i began to scan the table picking only the books that really calls my attention i don't know how to describe it but its as if there's a filter in my eyes that i can only read a very few titles.. and then after the 2nd table i found this little book.. and from the first time i've seen it i knew i would want to take it home.. its like finding the right puppy in the pet shop.. after this i still went around i was able to grab 2 more books because the sale says 5 for a certain $ which is very cheap.. so i search for other books i was able to find a hardbound copy of the former book that i really like and the other one is just about an aspiration book.. but the first book that i pick i was contented with it... i love finding a great book its like finding a needle in a hay stack.. i still havent started reading but i know this would be a nice book..

guidelines

find a book that would have things i need to keep in mind if i wanna succeed in this field... this merely a guidelines but information is the key.. i didn't realize i'll be purchasing this one i just happen to pass by bookstore kinokinuya in Takashimaya.. i never intend of buying book that day and the price tag is beyond my budget but i realize this won't be a waste.. i'll make sure of that... heh.. i hope this could get me the card that we so wanted...

backmasking

and so i act accordingly
i walk the walk, talk the talk
like what it supposed to be.
though its melting me
i tried to enjoy the rain
and while laughing and singing
i then heard you change your tune
i tried to be tone deft to ignore it
but i knew things have changed
then i remember that i had a promise
an oath to save myself from tear break
immediately i then put on a poker face
plastered a silly smile to masked everything else
and live... to continue with my own plans
everything is different every second now
maybe tomorrow i’ll get what i want
but until then... until then...
i’ll wait until then...

-Tsux’iit

HeartFelt*BrainsFart0.1

its hard to think about tomorrow
when there's that line in front of you.
while the rest, party their way across it
you on the other hand whispers in silence,
please don't leave me..

this has been a continuously reoccurring.
looking around wearing that same smile.
but you know there's this difference with theirs
its that something important as oneself.
something special you wished you have.

so you walk around pretending all's fine.
you continue with your own life.
you do things that has to be done.
act as if you careless what they do to you, for you..
but at the end of the day you still remember them all.
putting into account things that made some impact.
then you vaulted them in, in separated logs.
you kept them where they're supposed to be.
and no matter what, no matter how, you kept them all there.
you hide them all, for these things can't just be open up.
exposing them means more hurt...
so you suck 'em up, up until your heart blows up
then splurge some bucket of tears at rare occasion
then hide them all for the rest of the season
you continue with this while waiting for that happy ending to begin.

-tsux'iit1912

PHILIPPINES is our OHANA

we had a nice start in His inauguration or so as I've seen... it seems like a very nice start.. Filipinos being united in a common goal to save and change our country.. and just when we thought we're starting to move on.. we had to face this tragedy, where blood has been shed and lives were spared.. we grieve and morn for what happen too... and even scrutinize our system more,,, but i hope this won't break our nations unity and our belief that our nation is still best the place we wished to come home to, and despite the other countries doubts and criticism to our home.. lets be united as a nation, lets show them we are not what they think we are just because of what happen..

I'M PROUD TO BE A FILIPINO

PHILIPPINES is our OHANA. We found it, all on our own. Is little, and broken, but still good. Yeah, still good. -inx. lilo&stitch

Life and the CrossRoad

life is very much like as the crossroad
being there at its heart will give you a scare
you will look in all directions
and wish someone could hold your hand
this may work... specially when your lucky
but most of the time your all on your own
you have to manage and cross it alone
they may cheer you up
give you pointers to follow and encouraging words
you'll listen and study things that they will say
but in overdoing it.. may end up more confusion
then dealing with your own crossroad becomes a mess

but you cannot stay there for too long
for the longer you stay the harder it takes to cross

the play

being in it, never been part of the plan

it just happen as if it has been foretold

but there’s this feeling crawling up inside…

that there’s something in this play that makes it odd

now that the conclusion was about to start

thoughts of running never runs out

afraid to lose everything that has been stocked

and be forgotten after that

a lot had happen since the curtain unveiled

its like a new world has been layed

its pleasing, its lovely and everything is neat

and life.. life has been bearable for a change

then reality steps in like it always does

reminding there’s a life behind these neat sheet

and then its the waking up part,

the realization that all you have was an empty sack

regret?, no.. theres no space for that

after all its indeed a special plot

this maybe a play that has no re-run after that

there’s still a possibility for different series in this life time

-Tsux’iit

Orca birth brings Southern Resident killer whale population to 88

Orca birth brings Southern Resident killer whale population to 88

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project trip

trip to school of the arts...
its looks more of we're studying there
rather than supervising the works..

first things first (watch)

my very first watch.. the one i bought on my own.. the fist time i saw them in the store i knew that i'll get one soon.. and now i have one.. their not the exact combo i want... the strap isnt the one i really like but color is just ryt, but wat the heck i still love it., so watch.. check..

kapitan sinu (captain who??)

kapitan sino??? the 7th book of the ever famous but very shy author bob ong... Im really excited and can't wait to have one.. but since i'm not there.. i have to wait for my brother to send one for me... i'm thrilled to read it, because i know it will be so entertaining and people will think im crazy again laughing by myself... but what the heck.. is there anyone that didn't laugh while reading bob's books... i doubt... but in fairness its educational.. he makes readers be aware of the social issues in the country.. in a very fun and not horrible way... like the mc arthur book... opps that book nearly made me puke while reading it... and the alamat ng gubat too... don't ask why... i don't want to remember... heheh

bob ong has already release 6 other books before and eversince then noone knows who he really he is.. well except his publisher obviously... but its amazing he doesn't want to be known... others will give everything just to be famous and take all the credit in almost everything... but not him... i one time i read an article about him... that what the book gains goes to charity... so he encourages readers to buy their own copy... he even imprinted in one of his books "ito ay pag-aari ni__________ at bawal hiramin bumili ka ng sarili mung copya"... heheh...

i hope his books can betranslated to english.. or other language.. so readers from other places can read them to... but...
if its translated would the translation be funny to...
anyways... i want one... GIVE IT TO ME... MY PRECIOUS....

ZIPON

i got this from photobucket... i really like the drawing and the notes that it says.. they are simple but can touch you.... the drawings are called PON and Zi.. and i immediately thought of "sipon" hehehe... lav this.. so much...

change of heart

for a couple of blogs there has been attacks of too much vitriol in my system i don't know how and i don't exactly know why... but it has been a habit... that, i want to end.. that its why... i'm chaging my plot.. no more post thats a product of vitriol... goodbye blues... hello sunshine...
opps sounds a bit crazy... am i supposed to blog longer... crap my brain is rushing again... but the main thought is stop being so damn emo kid.. not that i'm saying its a crime to be an emo... but.. just want to get over things... its not healthy for me.. so... from now on posting due to vitriol is a major no no for me.. life is great... explore, live life, have fun... roam around etc.. etc.. etc... is the major goal.. and.. be an architect too.. A LICENSED ONE... heheh gosh... I want to grab that professional ID....

show me Neverland

there's a lot to be done,,, and a lot more to do...

everyday we must left behind and stay late

but its as if nothing is being done...

i can see many reason to be tired of doing

things over and over and over again

i often complain of being sick of them

i often loose my patience over tiny details

i don't like the path that i'm heading..

i'm becoming the person that i don't like..

things are not the way i used to be..

my passion to what i do is slowly fading away...

i don't want it to disappear but there are these instances that makes me feel that the effort is not

being appreciated... is this the real life... does grow up world supposed to be this complicated and

so messed up... if this is the way its supposed to be... then i don't want it... please.. show me the

way to Neverland... let me stay there for the rest of my unusual life....